Wasting in Uncategorized Thoughts
- April 16, 2014, 2:39 a.m.
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For how much we claim to love life, for how much we think about death, and for how many of those cliche expressions and quick sayings I see splattered about the internet, we sure do love wasting time.
Not that I'm any better. Hell, I could give classes in the best way to waste an evening, with tonight as an ideal demonstration. It would heavily feature 2048, with just enough internet browsing to fill the gaps.
I'm on travel for work, and it's disrupted the routine that I was building. Go to work, eat generally healthy, exercise, do contract work, play with the cats, rinse, repeat. Half the habits I've been making have already been shot to hell and I've been here for about a day and a half.
This is a horse I'm tired of getting back on.
Speaking of which, I flirted with the idea of trying to date again, and have decided that, at least for now, I like the idea of a relationship rather more than the reality of it. The reality is far messier, and a lot more work, and I find it hard to convince myself that that's something worth pursuing.
I know, thrilling updates here. No, I don't have a Big Idea to impart; this entry is mostly just wasting time until I can go to sleep and reasonably expect not to wake up at 5:30 in the morning. Because that shit sucks.
On the bright side, I might get some reading in, which is always nice.
sparkyray ⋅ April 16, 2014
That's a good routine.
Also, READ. Because reading. Because yay.
You know, as much as people say relationships are "work," I'm not sure I'm in total agreement. Mine's not work. It occasionally made me want to set everything on fire and stomp away (okay, like, twice, ever), but 99% of the time, it's just hanging out with a sexy best friend. Which should never be effort. I hear a lot of people describe their marriages really happily/casually, like "best friend with whom I have sex and have children" or "permanent roommate." I like those better. Even at the beginning, it was more of a really possessive hanging out than deliberate courting and impressing. THAT sounds stressful. /random thought
/tl;dr relationships shouldn't be chores and if they are they're wrong.
AwaitingCrescendo sparkyray ⋅ April 17, 2014
I agree completely that relationships shouldn't be chores; chores are shit I have to do but ugh, why can't someone else just do this for me?!
When I say work, I mean that it takes time and energy. They can be rewarding, even incredibly so, but I'm about as far down the Introvert scale as you can get :-P. People take energy. So does writing, and I find that rewarding, and work, and exercise. A good relationship can (should!) even give you a runner's high...but for me, there is always that "taking time and energy" thing. Right now, I've just got no more to squeeze out.