I am suffering some wretched summer cold bug. It started with Deb and has moved to me. So far Mandy has not gotten this. We believe it started at RennFaire last week, the dust and people there. Perhaps a slight sinus irratation that has grown into an infection. The aching head because of the fullness and the constant drip is maddening!
Mandy's partner came down on Thursday night for a supposed weekend visit, but Mandy told her that she wanted a divorce. This happened on Friday, around time I was coming home as I realize now that they almost hit me on my Harley as they argued in the car coming here. I looked up just in to see them rocketing towards me and they pulled out just in time to bearly miss me. I followed them home to varify that it was indeed them.
Then the screaming and cussing started. I grabbed a ginger beer (a wonderful soft drink) and escaped to hide out back in my little forest. I grew up in a house filled with hate, rage and anger, my parents fighting verbaly and physically all the time. I do not handle this well, so much as I did when I was child I hid wating for it to all be over. My little forest is dense enough that Deb could not find me when she came looking.
There have been appologies and I uderstand how it is, I have been there thru several divorces. It is just something I do not handle well. Guess this is one reason I was diagnoised with PTSD from the abuse of my childhood.
We were going to RennFaire today, but I felt to crappy to go. Instead we went shopping for tools and supplies to complete a bathroom counter top and groceries.
Tonight I made hotdogs and hamburgers on the grill. Instead of cooking over the fire I cooked indirectly and smoked them and oh my Gawd! They were good! Tomorrow I am doing St. Louise style ribs, Cowboy Beans, slaw, and garlic bread. I was going to the Market with the girls, but I need to stay here and smoke the ribs low, slow and all day. Plus all the walking today my knees and legs are killing me. I just feel crappy! Achey and crappy!
Bought some store brand Cherry Moonshine today, real sweet, low power, but decent enough. I have it in the fridge to be really cold for all day sipping tomorrow. Now that shit should knock this bug out of my head!
Not really able to sleep tonight, this head and sinus thing. Here I am tippy tapping away incoherently.
It is still nice having Mandy here. We talk and joke, lot of hugs and cuddles. She tempers Debs rage and inner anger, making things smooth and wonderful. I have fallen in love with her, a sisterly love. We are a happy family. It is nice and comforting. When the crap of the other day finally blew over she held me so tightly and was crying softly against my neck as she saw how I retreated to being a frightened little kid. She made me feel better and safe.
Off here for Lorazepam and hopefully some sleep.
Good night all.
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