"Yes, I understand that every life must end, As we sit alone, I know someday we must go, Oh I'm a lucky man, to count on both hands the ones I love Some folks just have one, yeah, others, they've got none
Stay with me... Let's just breathe...
Practiced all my sins, never gonna let me win, Under everything, just another human being, I don't wanna hurt, there's so much in this world to make me bleed
Stay with me You're all I see...
Did I say that I need you? Did I say that I want you? Oh, if I didn't I'm a fool you see No one knows this more than me
As I come clean... I wonder everyday, as I look upon your face, Everything you gave And nothing you would save,
Nothing you would take Everything you gave...
Did I say that I need you? Oh, did I say that I want you? Oh, if I didn't I'm a fool you see No one knows this more than me And I come clean,
Nothing you would take Everything you gave Hold me til I die Meet you on the other side..."
"Just Breathe" - Pearl Jam
This is one of the songs I've chosen to have in my wedding once that finally happens. I've never wanted to get married just to get married, which is why I'm about 3 years into being engaged. Well, that and I don't want to do all that work while I'm in school, I want to enjoy it. I've never been into weddings or planning for them, but for some reason, lately I have been getting all these ideas for my wedding.
Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever feel content. If I'll ever have financial stability. I'm so sick of being in school & being broke. One year left. But I'm scared for where I'll go after that. I'm worried I will revert to what is comfortable. I need to stop working for my parents, I know that for sure.
Problems with working for your family: 1. If they aren't at the business a lot, everyone reverts to you. 2. When coworkers have questions, they always ask you even if you don't handle that type of thing. It gets really old re-directing people. 3. A raise? Oh, they hadn't thought of that, you're their daughter so they figured you were cool with what you are making. 4. You're their daughter so you can take care of this, right? 5. Listening to coworkers complain about your parents and agreeing, but feeling conflicted about saying so. 6. Constantly being caught in the middle. 7. Not being respected because of things you did when you were 15 - only now you're 27... 8. Having them tell coworkers things you might consider private. 9. Not being able to lie to your family about prior work obligations to get out of family events you'd prefer to avoid - they know your schedule. 10. Having to be the building maintenance & pest control person along with your other responsibilities such as being a salesperson, claim-handler, serviceperson, office manager, inventory monitoring & replenishing, trainer, technology & phone manager, human resources, advertising, bill-paying, reconciliations, company car maintenance, all while being a full-time student.
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