Another day... I detest my life in My life

I feel like I will just hate being a lawyer. Hate it.

I’m so slow these days. Absolutely hate myself for it. Wasting my own time.

Alright, let me also write that email now. OK. Finally done with that overdue emails. I have like 100s of them. I’m so bad at responding. What’s the fear? I don’t know why.

So afraid of emails. So afraid of emails. So afraid of job applications. Why can’t I just do them? Paralyzing anxiety. What do I do now? I hate that I’m having a wedding, darn it. I mean, just the aspect of having to connect with people… really… yeah.

So paralyzed. Darn.

How does a person even know if they like doing something? I’m just so confused. I feel so lost. It doesn’t help that I don’t have anyone I can talk to, really.