NJM23: Grateful in These Foolish Things

Nov. 23, 2021, 4:41 p.m.
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I’m following the prompt today. Five things I’m grateful for:

The obvious. I’m alive. I know this is repetitive in my journal, but I just can’t state it enough! I have survived yet another life-threatening situation (the third in as many years), this time a potentially deadly tumor and the subsequent surgeries and chemotherapy treatment. I’m grateful to be alive; grateful for modern medicine (though it seemed quite barbaric much of the time), for caring and interested medical staff, for my friends and family who came through over and over and over again. I am utterly and eternally grateful.
For my living space. Ya know, there’s just something about a fresh, clean slate and I am so happy I chose to move to The Treehouse back in July. It’s not that it’s the most perfect place in the world, but the move came at the most perfect time and the space suits me so perfectly right now.
For some parts of social media that kept me connected to my people during Covid and the long, weird days and nights of confusion during cancer treatment. In fact, I’ve found a whole new level of support in people I’ve met online who are going through the same things as it relates to cancer and even my carotid injury. I figured if they could get through this nightmare, so could I. Included in this bullet point is Prosebox. I’m grateful for this space where I can write down my shit and get feedback! I know we’ve been doing this for how many years? I’ve been doing this for 22 YEARS! You, yes YOU have been a significant part of my life for much of my whole life!
For my dog who is my constant companion. I know I am one of those pet parents and it’s almost ridiculous (okay, it’s totally insane), but she is 100% my support animal and has been on more occasions than once my reason for getting out of bed in the morning. Actually, I have to drag her out of bed in the morning, but you get what I’m saying.
For knowing that nothing lasts forever. Well, that’s a blessing and a curse. You work so hard for something only to watch it fly away, melt away, burn to ash (you know I’m talking about love), but it doesn’t necessarily have to be that way. The fact that we are all in a constant state of change means that we can continue to morph into whatever it is that we want to be until the very end of our days. I’m grateful for that option and that opportunity. I never want to squander it again. I’ve spent far too long pursuing the wrong things only to find myself back at square one. But square one is still a good place to START. Never stuck. Always in motion. Keep changing.