So much, so much to update. I guess I’ll just dig right in.
The Bulldog has been hanging around and it’s been fun. I guess the last time I wrote, he was in and out and in and out. And it was driving me crazy. Well, I guess he knew this, and he finally invited me to his family’s vineyard and winery the next weekend. Well. WELL! It was nothing short of spectacular!
I seriously had one of the best days that I’d had in a long time. It really felt like a wonderful, wonderful date: the weather was gorgeous, he talked with me non-stop (2 hour drive there and back), we met with some old friends of his (that part was a little strange as one of the “friends” seemed a little on the too-close-for-comfort side, but that’s another story for another time. Anyway…), we drank great wine, we ate, we laughed. I enjoyed the hell out of myself and didn’t question any of it.
And I got a HUG this time! Ha.
The winery stuff was a few weeks ago. Since then, we’ve gotten closer and we’ve hung out quite a bit...yet, as soon as things start to feel good and comfortable and even boyfriend/girlfriend-y, he cools off and backs off. Annoying and a bit frustrating. But nothing that’s going to throw me over the edge. I don’t need a boyfriend right now, and I think he knows this. He’s smart, folks. I believe for good reason.
No, we have not even kissed yet!!!
He’s into astrology, and not just in the way you’d like like, “Oh, I’m a Scorpio, so that makes me secretive and sexy and blah, blah, blah…” No. it’s in the way astrologers are like, “Your ruling planet is Mercury and it trines with Uranus on yada yada date and that means that you are going to be going through a phase of indecision and fear…” (note that I have no idea what I just said there, it’s just an example of how he talks).
Whatever! Now. I’m interested in astrology in that scratch the surface kind of way because I just find it entertaining. I like to read my horoscope every now and then.
But The Bulldog will actually heed certain signs and phases in that he (at least he’s told me this…I haven’t really seen it yet) will take certain actions or inactions in accordance with the planets and their alignment. Now. I don’t know if this is a good thing or a bad thing. It’s just a thing. That exists with him.
Is this why he won’t do me, let alone kiss me? I gotta wonder.
Firestarter: The Bulldog told me that, based on the things he knows about me and my planetary alignment, I am fire-y. I burn things. He said I should write things down and then burn them. Wonder what he’d think of this journal? Should I burn it?
Friends, Wonderful Friends! I am so very lucky. I have some peeps. I love them. They pick me up and spin me around and make me see things from a different light. I am so thankful.
I got to visit [Athena] the weekend before this last weekend, and I’m so thankful for that! She picked me up at the airport on Friday morning (took a day of vacay!) and we simply went from there…
Friday was a whirlwind of sassy drinking and fine dining (to think, I almost missed the dining due to the drinking – gasp! But we/I rallied and it was so worth it.). Saturday was beach time, more girl talk, good eats and even a movie date. AND some sugary sweet puppy love from her darling dogs. They made sure I wasn’t feeling any kind of blue as they smothered me with kisses. Sunday was a fantastic brunch and then back to the airport to fly home to take my mom out for Mother’s Day! What a soul-soothing trip. I enjoyed every minute.
And all along the way my girls are there. Tonight is a downtown dinner in my hood with my suburban housewife friend. I love that she invited me to her friend’s dinner. I appreciate the thoughtfulness of my sweet girls. I am loved, I know it. And I can’t thank my friends enough.
SP Returns. I’m sure you may have thought that SP might come back. He did. At first with a silly text. Ignored. Of course, he had to follow that up the next day with a more powerful text that I finally answered. Long story short, we have texted, we have talked, we have even had dinner together. I told him that I would see him and I would talk, but I couldn’t bear to discuss anything heavy.
He agreed. We had a very light time, and it was nice. I know, though, that things are not different. He just misses me. My guess is that it didn’t work out with whomever and he’s back sniffing around. I’m glad we talked. I’m glad I saw him. What I am going to do with it, I don’t know.
Work is a good way to distract from all of the love stress because WORK STRESS. I am prepping for another trip to China and yes, frazzled as all get-out. In fact, I need to cut short because I need to attend to some things. But I just had to come on and get the above out. It’s important.
And after I post this entry, I will burn it.
Love and Tears,
GS
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