Art for arts sake in Random

This is a phrase that has given me some trouble in recent years. I’m someone who wants to be creative, I have a strong imagination and ideas, I just have no good way to get them out. From as far back as I can remember I’ve always tried to capture my ideas in drawing, building and writing. My dad told me once I used to write poems when I was younger which surprises me because I couldn’t do that now if I had a gun to my head. My biggest issue with creating as an adult is that, sad as it may seem, I want feedback. More pathetically, I want people to like what I do. I want to write all these stories in my head but I kinda suck at writing. I read lots of books with insane descriptions of architecture and landscapes and my version is like: “The forest had lots of trees, different sized trees. The ground was overgrown with brush and wildflowers, also there were probably birds flying around…I don’t know, whatever. In the forest there was a house with four walls and a roof that was slanted. It had windows and doors. It was also two stories, oh and the windows had wooden shudders.” I’m sure it takes time and research to really get the details you need to build a world. And I’ll never get better at writing if I keep it to myself because I’m too scared to share it.

I’m curious to see if there are other who feel similarly and what you do to combat it. If anybody reads this, please feel free to share your experience.