I am such a fuck up most of the time. I say shit I probably shouldn’t talk about because I hate keeping all my problems in my head. And I feel like I have nobody to talk to and it just really sucks. I try not to get close to people because almost every friendship I have ever had has gone to shit and I want to think positive thoughts about future friendships but that is also hard.
I feel like so many times I am outside myself watching me do life. I feel so much like people just tolerate me and I just want to be more open but it seems like so much in my life needs to be a secret right now. Things I shouldn’t talk about. Things I can’t talk about.
All I really want out of life right now is a genuine good friend.
Also life sucks because I have worked really hard on blog posts and new poems and have a decent Facebook page following and nobody even reads the dumb shit. It just sucks so much to pour your heart into something and it feels like nobody fucking cares. And it just all really fucking sucks.
Fuck today. And fuck tomorrow too.
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