I’m not going to say who I am, but I simply wish to show how I feel things to the world and maybe through this veil of anonymity, I might finally be brave enough. This story won’t start to far in the past but rather a few months before i began my life as an e-girl.
I had just been suspended from college, my gpa fell to the point where I received academic warning, as an international student, this was hard, my family which had been rich enough to send me abroad was entering into financial strain, we had had moments of financial trouble before, but this was significantly worse my father was recovering from his partial stroke his contract was ending and several businesses he had ventured into had fallen through, as an international student in my country of choice, I was not allowed to work so for my few years of college time I felt like a burden.
A few months prior to my suspension, in my love life I had just recently permanently ended things with my ex he had cheated on me, blaming it partly on the long distance as he lived back in my home country. I sent him a long message telling him why i could no longer be with him, wishing him the best and how I would also be moving on. Prior to the break up I had been diagnosed with clinical depression It was only after I had decided that it would be best to break things off had I realized that i had been dealing with emotional abuse but that is a topic for another time.
Fast forward a month, I begin playing World of Warcraft, I love rp, it gives my imagination room to breathe, and at the time i first started playing WoW classic, it was my escape from a bleak reality, life seemed less worth living and my environment soon mimicked my morale, it became filthy, but when i roleplayed as my hero in WoW, there was a sense of freedom, i never wanted to stop. I made friends, had some issues with a guild, ended up changing guilds, but the most significant of all my experiences was meeting a paladin who i will call Dawn who later became my husband.
Dawn told me about twitch streaming, I never knew about it nor cared for it but for him i decided to give it a try, It was nerve wracking at first to be honest but it didn’t take me long be fore I started learning to grow. A lot happened and it wasn’t smooth sailing but his is the beginning of how I became an e-girl
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