happy birthday to me :) in life as kittybobatea

nope just nope. i don’t want much for my birthday. i just want to be recognised as who i am, not under someone else’s shadow. my heart breaks every night knowing that no one really gives a damn about me. i may act like im fine with it but actually i don’t. im not fine with it. i hate it, very much. i really want to change myself. gosh i really need someone to help me. all my friends make empty promises. always say that they’re here for me but actually they don’t. for once, i want someone who truly cares about me. who accept me as who i am. someone who willing to help me be stronger,but im scared it might be impossible. ugh why am i spilling my thoughts here. i just want to disappear from this world. be somewhere calming. i really need that rn…