Forbidden feelings in Messed up thing i call my life

What are you supposed to do if you start falling in love with a friend? I just found him; this whole friendship is still so fresh. Why does he have to be so charming and hot? His smile is my kryptonite.
It would be easier if he didn’t have a girlfriend, or maybe it wouldn’t, he is after all many miles away.
I can’t say anything to him obviously, but its gets harder to talk to him every day.
I don’t know if anyone will ever read this, but so you’d know I’m not here for advice, just to let excessive emotions out