Drunken notes in Messed up thing i call my life

What is going on with me, why do I wait for him to reply like it is fresh air after lockdown?
Oh, I wish I could tell him how I feel, but its inappropriate! Dammit, I hate it.
I just want to feel your touch on me, please hug me. I can scream, but it’s not gonna change anything. it sucks to be in love with someone you can’t have, someone that can’t even know about your feelings