I’m beginning to embrace my independent, strong-willed, and free spirited personality. My ex always made me feel so bad about being independent. And even after we broke up, I realized that he continued to make me feel bad about anything. The way he thinks of himself is so convoluted; he sees himself as without faults and being such a nice guy. Yet, he turns everything around on me to make me look like the constant bad guy, when in reality, this is exactly was doesn’t make him a nice guy.
I’m not sure if he’ll ever own up to his faults. But I’m starting to not give a shit anymore. I’m moving forward with my life, and that’s what matters to me.
I told my therapist about a hummingbird tattoo that I’m planning to get once the tattoo studios open back up. It feels very me: independent and free. But she told me something about them that I never really realized, but it’s been going through my head all day. She said that like me, they are small, but fierce. I’m not physically a small person, but I’ve got that quiet, observant, logical personality. I study my surroundings. And I’ve been told by my managers before, that yes, I’m silent, but silence speak louder than words sometimes. I’ve taken that and held it really close to me as part of who I am. When my therapist compared me to a hummingbird in a way of being small, but fierce, the silence speaks louder than words came to mind. I think my spirit is small, subtle, but fierce. I’m not sure if that makes any sense. I don’t know exactly how to put it into words, but I know how it feels.
I really feel like I’m becoming my best self. And I’m on the sidelines watching my ex not become a better person than who he was when we were together. And I wouldn’t say I wish that upon him, but it certainly makes me feel a bit happy about it.
Glow up, girl. GLOW UP.
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