Friend in Toxic love

Ive known you for years and you have never given me any sort of vaule in my life it always made me laugh when you introduced me to ppl as your best friend because i was never treated as such and never felt it. How you made me feel or how i viewed my self with you is very low because of how you made me feel i viewed my self as your designated duff because if we to hang out and go to a party or some social gathering i had to change my clothes into something you owned like what i wore wasnt good enough and one thing you said has stayed with me(you gotta look good because if you dont then that makes me look bad) like i doubt for a min you ever took the time to think about how that made me feel. I stopped borrowing anything to you because most the time i never got ot back so at the end of the night i always made sure i got my things back and on another note if i needed to wear your clothing to look good why the fuck would you want to borrow anything of mine? Idk just never made any since. For a long time i was blinded of what kind of friend you were to me but my family and other friends always noticed how you treated me and i always brushed it off like oh its not that bad but in reality it was you were like the Regina George in mean girls. Telling me just because im in a relationship doesn’t mean i have to let my self go… Like thanks i guess like im not gonna lie when i saw that you your self got fat i thought it was karma at its finest for all the remarks you made about mine ya im salty and everything you have said is remembered it hurt and left a imprint on my soul but yet you told ppl i was your best friend? Bitch please i was your duff,last resort, reason to feel better about ur self because you were skinny and attractive so having a ugly friend by your side gave you more attention. Again this is just how you have made me personally feel. Not gonna dismiss the good times because we def have had fun and i have enjoyed your company on numerous occasions ive bottled my feelings for years. I feel no negativity or ill feelings tords you but for once i want you to see how you made me feel just once and this post wasnt meant to be a bashing fest just had to let them feels out once. If this post reminded you of anything or like tbe shoe fit perfectly then yasss its probably about you. Queen bee is what comes to mind because thats how you acted and like everyone else was to serve you and kiss your feet.