Sometimes I just feel lonely. That’s why I joined this site. I used to really enjoy writing in journals when I was younger, and I thought maybe this would help me.
I’m really struggling right now, I know everyone is, we are in a pandemic after all. I feel alone, even though I’m not. I don’t know how to get out of my head, and I don’t know how to talk to people. I’ve always been the type to deal with my emotions silently. I wish I had the courage to tell people what’s on my mind, but I never have. I suspect it’s something I’ll struggle with the rest of my life.
I have great friends, a great family, and a great significant other, but it doesn’t feel like enough. I find myself getting emotional about things that shouldn’t bother me, but they do. My anxiety is constantly through the roof, and consistently rising. I just wish I knew what to do about it.
I know that I’m not alone with these struggles, and that many people have it much, much worse. I just wish my body was that logical. I have nothing to complain about, nothing to be upset about, yet here I am.
Typing this out has already lifted some of the pressure. It feels good to tell someone, even it’s in an anonymous internet post that will probably never be read by anyone. That’s ok, I’m just glad it’s out there and not stuck inside of me.
Maybe I’ll write again soon.
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