Am I normal? in Bedtime thoughts

Thinking about my “rage” situations and I’ve lost it with my ex back 2012 or 2013 when I wanted to stab him , I had scissors in my hand ready and what caused it a play suit wouldn’t fit and he was laughing at me while I was flipping out. Now is that bi-polar or just a brat? But have I wanted to die before all the drama in life? I don’t think I did I just had my anger issues but so did my ex so I’m fine? Mum copes all the rage now which I’m so sorry for but once I get worked up I can’t stop or control what I say .. like that day I couldn’t find my shoes .. I was screaming at mum and crying myself to work .. over a pair of shoes .. maybe I don’t know