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I know that everyone has different time lines for things to happen and I shouldn’t compare but it’s so hard when everyone has someone; getting married, having children, moving in together. It’s h...

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Going to have kids Get married Find someone who loves me Be happy Get over My ex

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I’m over feeling unwanted and unloved … seriously no one would no if I disappeared. Stressing myself out to the point of throwing up for housemates that don’t care about me or my things I’m just ...

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Well today has been a good distraction.. yes I was upset cause Ex took for hours to contact me again saying he misses me.. well he can go die cause I gave him soo many chances and who cares if I ...

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Well obliviously I really don’t mean anything to him and I know I should let him go back it felt nice knowing someone loved me but I guess he was full of lies and the truth is no one other than m...

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Strangely enough I feel good not super happy not super sad just good… I know I need to address the Ex situation and I need to sort out a few other things but I’ll get there .. take one day at a ...

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It’s easy for people to judge my life and think they know exactly what’s going through my head but no one will never know the amount of demons I face every day and night … how close I want to go ...

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Please don’t let me wake up … let my soul finally rest and be happy it’s been hurting for soo long now please don’t let me wake I can feel I’m so close to death .. I want it so badly

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No one would care if they didn’t hear from me or I didn’t come home

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I want to be happy and have someone like everyone else .. I’m so sick of hearing that you don’t need a partner to feel happy etc but I’m sure as hell you don’t feel lonely with one.. is it so wro...

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He wants what he can’t have that is all and it’s that simple. He continues to hurt me and doesn’t care that’s why I need to leave him in the past but it’s so hard to go back to being lonely

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Thinking about my “rage” situations and I’ve lost it with my ex back 2012 or 2013 when I wanted to stab him , I had scissors in my hand ready and what caused it a play suit wouldn’t fit and he wa...

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Can’t I just be lucky once in my life and please let me not wake up. I have nothing going for me and I just want the pain to end .. is it peaceful after life? Is it better than this?? It has to b...

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Woke up and threw up, possibly from lack of sleep. Left early to grab a coffee and coffee was a disappointment. Got to work early on the plus side don’t really remember the boring drive and got t...

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