strong textYesterday night I experience the first real reaction of my wife about my 20+ days of struggling, it sounded not very strong but I felt it was from the depth of her heart. There was a situation that I was about to get disappointed because a bad situation happened to us (Huge sim block in our old business) that we were about to completely stop making money (from old business and also Uber (COVID-19 issue)) but she said me I never saw you like what you look like now after your 20+ days commitment. It was just a single sentence in the middle of lots of other sentences to encourage me (I didn’t believe others because I thought they are just fake and contradicted and for giving me energy). Thanks, Ellie.
Today practice, three positive neuro association and three negative ones.
1) Fast disappointment:
I afraid that I make a mistake again, afraid of working through and full commitment and fail again
2) Being impatient in tough situations and lose consistency
Forgetting and distraction to something exciting help me relieve
Dreaming helps me to get relieved and even enjoy my current time so well, it is like a drug for me
3) Afraid that somebody makes fun of me
I remember my dad actions that are still painful
I afraid to blush when that situation happens and I get so embarrassed
1) My Marriage
I am so proud that my wife supports me in any situation and our life-death are completely entangled together
2) Being positive and kind
I enjoy giving energy to people because it causes me to feel so well
I never can be negative cause I think it’s useless to be negative, sometimes I feel negative but I always limit it. recently I started to elongate my pessimistic time, that is so bad.
3) Teaching
It gives me the feeling people to understand and get to some challenging discussion without bigotry.
It helps me to understand the subject more in-depth.
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