I’m scared. Maybe now people will understand. in Daily ramblings.

It’s been what can only be described as, the shittiest start to a year ever.

I’ve now been single for 2 months… although it should have been longer. I’ve also turned into a bit of a ‘hoe’ - not actually, but I feel like one. I’ve been on a few dates and slept with a couple of people. Not quite sure what I’m trying to achieve through this. Also managed to get myself a ‘friends with benefits’ - which I never thought would happen 😂🙈.

I keep thinking to myself that one day, I’ll just write everything down, but truth is, I’m scared. Scared of admitting it, scared of people finding it, scared of being judged.

And then there’s COVID-19. I’m convinced I’m going to die. Im isolating/lockdown in my flat. I’m FaceTiming my parents daily and trying to keep up social contact that way. I can’t actually begin to explain the anxiety I feel around it all - it doesn’t help that I’m naturally anxious daily anyway, perhaps more people will be sympathetic to mental health after this.