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I took a mental health day today. I emailed my teacher at 7 am to express I wasn’t going to be there because I didn’t sleep well at all last night. My cramps woke me up around 2 am and then it was pure tossing and turning, waiting for the meds to kick in. Once they did I spent about an hour try to find good enough porn to masturbate to but my orgasm was a bust…just really pathetic. I’m up now, answering emails and trying to muster the energy to cook breakfast. I also have to go to the store to get cat food. Ugh.

Chu and I are still fighting. I haven’t said more than 10 words to him since Saturday. I’m feeling embarrassed and hurt mostly. Screw him. He tried to apologize but only after he played his games, ate all he wanted and hung out with his brother. I was the last on his list…again. I hate how I’m always the afterthought once he’s done all that he wanted to do. Seriously, screw him. I’m not really ready to talk to him anyway. My cramps and sleepiness have been really kicking my ass. Those stupid vitamins didn’t help at all....what a waste.

I started a group chat yesterday to Chu’s side of the family. I asked about how their goals are coming so far and no one answered me -_-

Oh, January…