I am here at work but hardly working. Sure, there are things to do, but hard to get into because they are so huge and I don’t feel like starting something monumental. So I’m getting small things done and answering emails while shooting the shit with a few other people in the office. Not many of us here.
Was in the office yesterday (supposed to be on vacation!) because Boss wanted to have a meeting/review with me from 10am - 2pm. Of course, he was late and our review ran over but I was still out of the office by 3:45 so that was nice. Today our office is closing at 2pm. Happy New Year!
I’ve spent some of the last few days reviewing the last decade. I had to go back to old downloaded Open Diary entries and then I started writing in Prosebox in 2013 (and then when my iPhone photos started saving to the Cloud in 2015) so I’ve been skimming over those in the spirit of looking at how far I’ve come in the last decade.
I wanted to do a little blip in my Insta Stories about what happened over the last decade (I found a cute template that a designer had made as a format for people to use) and there’s only enough space for just a little tidbit from each year - 2010 to 2019 - and you know what? It boiled down to this:
- Got the prime wedding development job!
- Ate, drank, slept everything Wedding!
- Got engaged!
- Moved to…the burbs!
- Broke the engagement
- Moved back downtown where I belong
- Got into the pet business.
- Lots of work travel
- MARTINI came into my life!
- Took a million business trips
- And some super fun girls trips
- Started Brunch Club with [Athena]
- 30th HS Reunion
- The Champagne Campaign
- Turned 50!
- Took an Italian #milestonevacation
- Started the year with at tango in Buenos Aires!
- Ended the year with a toast in NYC!
- Survived a life-threatening injury
- Discovered my guardian angels and started living a new life
Honestly, looking back and reading through entries I found that I spent SO MUCH TIME agonizing over guys! And yes, I still do this! And I truly, truly need to stop fixating! It’s not worth that much of my time. Honestly.
Truly, after surviving my injury and getting a second chance at life I really need to re-prioritize my entire life. We’ve only got so much time on this earth and I’ve spent a disproportionate percentage of that worrying and wondering and, like I said, AGONIZING over what to do about a badly-behaving human? I have given these undeserving men such prime real estate in the garden of my life!!
No more. Sure, I want a partner and someone to walk the rest of this life with, but damn, girl. I really need someone worth my time.
Same goes with my work. I truly need to get to a place where I feel like I’m serving a purpose and not just doing a JOB. And it doesn’t have to be my career per se, but I need to be doing something that serves a purpose - if that is a hobby or a volunteer situation or even a side gig like a special project, then that’s fine. But I want to be creating something fulfilling.
I will say that even the brunch club has been a fulfilling project. There’s something to bringing people together like that. Perhaps something similar, or even adding another element to brunch club (we added a charity element to it one year and I really liked that, but it wasn’t super organized).
Regardless, in addition to looking back, I’m taking a good, hard look at my life moving forward and those are my initial thoughts.
Now, I do have some other things I need to do before I get outta here and get on with my New Year’s Eve celebration with HD. Yes, we are going out tonight!
More to follow…
Happy New Year’s Eve!