Head-space in Random_Thoughts

I hear gun shots and fire alarms go off in my mind as I sit in this open plan office with people typing their days away.
Now they sit and don’t respond or can’t they hear what I can. Possibly not, I am going absolutely insane these days.
Why is it that I have to fall into this loop of wondering, being in my own mind so much it feels just like reality.
It is really bad for me, really unhealthy for my well being, but I just can’t stop it. It feels like a part of my life, a part of my routine.
Wake up, work, drive home spend time with my son, sleep and on weekends go to my boyfriend and be at his house.
Never ending pessimistic deep dive whole of unforgettable routines that can drive any human being like me into abnormal and deprived insanity.
My head-space is full of voices and scenarios of life, full of non-stop thoughts and horrors.