Film industry fucking my life up in Riverdale

Movie industry fuking my life up

Not exactly but it's been irritating lately. They'll be gone soon.

But last night I was woken up at about 2 am to continuous gun shots for about an hour or so. Really loud!

I had a problem at one point with the lighting it was pointing directly into my bedroom but they Blackfit my windows giving me these black shade things so that problem was solved.

I mean I read the paper they posted in the lobby about it all and them trying to be all polite and all that but it's still intrusive and annoying. Having to walk over wires and hope camera equipment doesn't fall on me.

They said for our co operation they'd give money to our favourite charity. My favourite charity right now is me. I barely have enough money to live. That's just such a quaint little proposal. Of course they have not asked anyone in our building about any of this. Apparently they blackfitted people's homes on the street but when I called the production guy or whatver the fuck he was said oh we didn't intend for it to travel that far. Which wasn't far at all really especially since the light is right across from me.

I just hate film industry people for the most part they think they are better than everyone else sometimes and they don't seem to really care how much they are distrupting the lives of the people who live in the area.

Big deal your shooting a movie or tv series I don't care unless I'm getting some kind of compensation for it. Not a donation to a charity. And an apology for a movie that will fill your fucking pockets.

Anyways just doing laundry and cleaning up today. I feel much better in my mood after taking a shower doing my hair and make up and cleaning up and doing laundry. I had to really push myself to do it but I'm glad I did

I just feel so down still and in pain about things and lonely it lingers and it's hard to feel motivated excited and happy about most things really when you have so many voids in your life. Love is missing good people and a foreseeable future and purpose plus my money situation.

I'm not broke but it's just hand to mouth and relying on ppl sometimes and that doesn't feel good. I want to make my own living really and be more self supprting.

Some people just don't understand how hard it is when you struggle w money and are on a merger social assistance cheque. So many bills come up and circumstances and you can hardly find much joy because you are too bay surviving living and self medicating the pain. No time for lots of fun comfort free of worry.

Not only that you wanna job that pays well because social asssistance comes in chops your cheque in half and you subsidized rent goes up. It's hard to get ahead. That's where I wish I had a good partner or something. I mean not just any old guy but a good one sometimes and maybe this sounds bad but some one who isn't fantastic maybe but is not violent stupid a leach can hold his own and mind his own business and not try to control me or abuse drugs and alcohol heavily to the point of being a complete stupid fuckhead.

Sometimes I just wish I had it for practical reasons financially and all that. But of course that's not completely ideal or perfect or fool proof either to an extent.

But whatever, just waiting for laundry and than going to get something to eat.