soo, school got more boring but what’s keeping it lively are my bestfriends and offcourse my friends. im really happy that im able to interact with each one of them happily, and that im able to put a smile on their faces. not only a smile, but a genuine laugh.
im really sad that i broke me and aaron’s friendship.
i don’t know what went into me that made me say such thing.
i really need to have self control.
i just want you to know (whoever is reading this) that those friends that made me happy have a huge impact in my life. when this friend is mad at me, i feel very empty, i lose hope, i remain hurted though i show my happy side.
only my close friends can see that im sad when pretending to smile, but sometimes it’s hard to hold, that everyone notices my sadness. but like, how do they know so easily? though im just showing a neutral face?
i love my friends more than they know. i may show my grumpy side but i love them so much. i’d do everything to protect them and all. i don’t want them to notice because i just don’t wanna show them that side of me.
when they hurt me, it hurts just 1 million times more than how it really should be
when one of my friends argued with me, i felt so hurt and empty. i felt uncomfortable and i could never imagine not interacting or not being friends with them
even those people who did bad things at me, i could never help it to not help them in times when they need me
a girl named jhanel had been a big antagonist of my life but i choose to accept her cause i know she has a good side as well
you know, school is boring as well because i don’t have a crush on anyone anymore, my last crush was idk.
btw grantt, my other old crush is just like a brother to me now since last last week. i don’t know why i don’t feel anything for him anymore. it’s just, gone. I think this is the same case when i liked adrian, i really can’t and won’t like him anymore. it’s never coming back.
but i really regret breaking our friendship, me and that dude’s. aaron
when you need to let go but you can’t really let go yet
when you thought someone’s your future but you guys are not in set
it hurts to much
that you guys aren’t destined for each other
but you’ll have to let go
no matter how much you expected to be together
i miss you.
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