2nd september 2019 in Clearing the competitive exam NEET

i am very sorry. i could’nt write cause i didn’t have the motivation to. i have my physics exam on 4th this month and i am super scared. there are almost 8 chapters coming in the exam and i am still on chapter one. well i did prepare for the exam. i edited pdf files but i forgot to save the file and all my work got erased so i am doing chapter 1,2 and 3 again. our teacher told us to do just two units but idk it’s in my head that i wanna score the best in class and i just can’t stop myself from thinking about that. then there’s this whole exam month. it seems hopeless. i don’t know how i am gonna crack neet with good score. i thought i would never write again but here i am again. i think i should study smart. i am just gonna do two units like our sir said. then i will just do chemistry which is left to prepare since the preparatory holidays for it are very less. i woke up early today around 5 am and found myself having some weird pain in my ear. it was just too much and i decided to sleep and woke up around 8:30 am. it is 10:53 am exactly and i just got up now to take hold again. writing all this is like i am talking to person really close to me. to talk about my neet syllabus i did start working for it. it just didn’t go as planned. i thought i would do 3 chapters a day biology ofc since it is lil easier as compared to chemistry and physics but i just did one chapter and did some mcq’s for that chapter. i thought i would record myself reading answers since it is very helpful but I DID NOT.
i am not lazy i know it just is weird. maybe i am too tired. i don’t wanna regret i am gonna work. so 2 units of physics it is then. i’ll try to record myself u know- i am talking about biology. i wanna be like doctor strange xD
i just don’t wanna be scared u know. i feel like i don’t have enough reasons to wake up early and work. i wanna save lives that’s it. it has just been a meaningless journey this far. now it is not going to be meaningless. it is for me, my family, my love and god.
and yea for the people who are just so set in making me feel like i am nothin
i am strong and so are you.
there’s a lot of fight left my brother/sister get up it’s high time.
let’s get to work! :))