Just for today in Addiction

Just for today, fuck my life and sobriety
Just for today, I’ll be removed from society
Just for today, I’m stealing your shit
Just for today, I’m getting off sick
Let go, let God, I see change on your floor
Just for today, I’m breaking your door
Live for today, cause tomorrow’s no guarantee, long sleeves all year so no one will see.
I hate you, I hate your face and your smile
I used to hate mine, but I’ve been dead for a while.
I haven’t cried since I don’t know when
I have a phone, but not one fucking friend
Everyone has left, and it’s better that way.
You told me to leave, but I wanted to stay.
I wanted to hurt you by hurting myself.
I have nothing of value or material wealth.
When I said I hated you, I was referring to me.
I’ll say I’m gone while watching you leave.