My husband informed me i overcompensate my stories i blow things out of proportion. He said he didnt call me i liar but i overexaggerate. He told me my friends are shit get new friends.His friends. My family is shit quit talking to them.
During a series of argument he thought it amusing to put a sewing pin in my leg while he was driving. He said i flipped out overcompensating because i was scared it was a bee. I didn’t have medicine i needed to treat the bee sting. I asked him to take me to get medicine upset to discover it was one of his pranks. I told his mom what he did when she discussed it with him when i got home from work he said i overexaggerate my stories to make him look bad.
I told him since being around/ talking to his friends and family make him look bad i informed him i plan to stay home by myself taking sleeping pills to sleep most of the time to avoid confrontation. If i am unconscious i cant exaggerate to make him look bad. I will block his mother on my phone never talking to her or his brother again. I cant exaggerate and blow things put of proportion if i dont talk to them. I will avoid his friends my friends. I will stay locked in the house alone with the cats because i cant cause conflict if i am not around anyone.
I told my mom Talan blocked me from going to the bathroom one day while we were arguing. My mother took Dee Talan’s moms number off my old phone to call Dee to say her son was beating me when he was not. My mother asked what is wrong with Talan to be so abusive so i spent this entire afternoon avoiding my mother’s phone calls to hear my husband say i am a drama queen that i cause all of our problems. I am going get her phone delete Dee so my mom cant cause problems by calling his mother.
Most of the time Talan sleeps on the couch he dared me to get divorce papers saying if i do he will leave never to return that i must change to make our relationship better by me changing. He fell asleep in the bedroom while he was asleep the cats cried for food. I got food for my cats and went to the couch to sleep. He wanted to know why i slept on the couch. I couldn’t tell him i couldnt face what a let down and overexaggerater i am. I wanted get in my car sell everything take my cats move far away to a farm never to talk to anyone again. I cant get in trouble if no one hears me talk.
Since our argument this morning involved me telling him i will not let him pick my friends i will block his family and be alone. He says it’s a horrible idea. I think it’s great idea. I prefer cats anyway. He doesnt argue about the cats. I plan to live as a hermit till the end of my days. He says it isnt healthy. I say having your words twisted by him, his mother and my mother being fussed at for hours isnt healthy either. He says i exaggerate but he doesnt considering i am living this hell due to perceptions of others. No communication no problems.
Talan after we argued and he poked me with a pin being what he thought was funny. He told me my dad is dead get the fuck over it. My mom is on medical leave due to depression and acts out when she doesn’t see me starting arguments. I see her often to have later discussions my husband complains i come home crying from mom’s. Mom and i discuss dad’s death his memories it makes me cry. Depression does that. He says mom’s toxic for bringing up dad. He was part of my life 31 years how can you not discuss someone who was such a large part of my life. I miss my dad.
Talan stayed 2 days at his friends Scotts. He kept promising to come home. He got upset when i said obviously he left me i will sign divorce papers and pack his bags. He said i am being dramatic. He said he was talking to them about how to be a better husband decided his problems are my fault that we cant resolve our issues by both of us compromising.
He said we either need to ignore the issue hope it goes away a marriage counselor or i need to get rids of all my friends because they are shit people i need to hang out with his. I have little to no interests with his friends. During a discussion he threaten to shatter my phone for me looking a text message.
My friend Kuhn got a new job left the Dollar General we were both abused by the manager at that job. I told her i was proud her finding a better job where she was better treated that i was putting in applications to try to find the same thing. Talan was insulted because he said i was ignoring him. He says he hates my phone i always stay on it. I stay on my phone because it is the only thing in my life besides my cats that give me comfort right now.
After a nap job applications because i didnt slept well last night. I need a better job if he plans to leave me i need enough hours to survive. I wont beg him to stay. He says my overexaggerations ruin our relationship my opinion his bitching does. I cant change him but i will change myself. One way or another i will find peace in my own house even if it means never talking or going outside my house again. Eat sleep job and die of loneliness is the plan. I wont ask for his attention ever again.
I cant fix this anymore. I cant make anyone happy so i am done. I will either sleep my life away. Do job applications or stay away from people. I like cats better anyway. Future cat lady here i come.