I made $100 this paycheck. I told my mom i need paid back for the money Tom owes me because i got to help my husband with bills. She demanded me to come drive her around when i told her i didn’t have the money mom threatened to never help me again, take the broke down bravada and mobile home needing repairs away leaving me homeless because i owe her money. She said do it her way or else.
I told her if she is going hold a vehicle with a motor blown over my head and ma mobile home that i cant afford to repair over my head give me time to pack my things i will give it to her to move to Virginia and never see her again. She will never hold material goods over my head for blackmail. I told her she already lost dad due to death is it advisable to threaten her daughter who is willing to leave in order to maintain my peace and sanity?
Since dad died every day mom wants me to cook her dinner drive her around clean her house and do her choree. She doesnt want me to live with my husband demanding me to divorce him so i can live with her to take care of her. She keeps me on the phone several hours a day trying to find manipulation tactics so i will come over and do her bidding. My mom wants me as her slave not her daughter.
I told mom i cannot run Tom my brother around anymore i am tired of running her chores that he lives there he can do them. Mom says Tom avoids her to spend time with his wife. She moved him into her apartment on the property after dad died now she blackmailing him. Do what she says or she leaves him homeless.
Yesterday i stayed home trying help my husband clean our house. My mom threw a fit demanding me to clean hers or there will be consequences. I told her i dont live here. She said after she breaks me and my husband Talan up i will in her house to take care of her. I tried to help my husband for her to say she will sell our mobile home out from under us if i do not take care of her. Either take care of mom or be homeless.
I just needed a day off a day to clean my house stay with my husband in peace. Mom is on a week of medical leave with a psychiatric breakdown due to depression from my fathers death. Dad died December 9th. She been going crazy ever since.She now cries she think dad committed suicide because he was miserable. She refuse to check if his heart attack was accidental or not. She talk over and over his last words how he died she blackmails me because dad asked me to be sure she is cared for. When she swears dads heart attack was suicide i cry a lot she uses it to guilt me. Mom is medicated by psychiatrists but she is driving everyone around her to insanity.
If mom continues down her rabbit hole of insanity i might have no choice but leave her Wonderland. I cant allow her psychiatric episode to destroy me like it destroys her. If i turn off my phone to get a break she threatens me on messages. I been thinking of turning off my answering machine. If i go out of cellphone rang she text me swearing to God i blocked her. I have never blocked her. As soon as she can contact me again she screams for over an hour if i ever block her she will take everything away and leave me homeless.
There is a lean on the mobile home and vehicle because i couldnt afford to pay it on my own so now mom copayed she often holds it over my head. I wanted to sell the Bravada because i cant afford the repairs she refused to allow me. She says i can only sell it after she gets $2,000 broke it isnt even worth $800.
Ollies the company i work for gave me 20 hours to work this upcoming week. They usually only give me 5-10 hours. I cant even afford gas to get to work or pay my bills. Even with my husband helping me we are 1 suprise bill away from homelessness.
Everyone in West Virginia are so poor that having anything nice is impossible. I feel sorry for anyone addicted to drugs. I cant afford groceries i couldnt imagine trying to pay for an addiction. I am lucky both me and my husband are drug free. I only smoke cigarettes when stressed. Last time i smoked was at dad’s funeral. After dad’s funeral I never bought any cigarettes after. I never been addicted to cigarettes.
My dad used to smoke cigarettes when i was younger after his heart attack when i was 13 he quit cold turkey never to return. The doctor says dad couldnt do it. The doctor was wrong. Dad smoked over 30 years to drop them by will power in 1 day.He still had the oral fixation so he bought sugar free candy to tend to the psychological side effects of smoking. He asked us for cigarettes we handed him sugar free peppermints. Everyone said those are cigarettes? We often laughed at peoples confusion. Dad used to have meltdowns by not having his sugarfree candy. Sugar free candy is cheaper and healthier than cigarettes. When i see peppermint or hard candy i sometimes cry because i miss him. Watching dad quit cigarettes taught me you can overcome anything using your mind.
I work 12pm-5pm today i woke up because Talan’s alarms went off at 5. Today is his day off. I am really grateful Talan likes his job. I might start looking for a better paying job soon. I deserve to like my job.
I want to sleep till work. My mom wants me to drive 15 minutes to Beckley to enertain her before work.. I wish i could just sleep in. I stay tired anymore. I might turn off my ringer only allow alarm to go off so i can get a break. I miss rest. I miss not dealing psychological warfare and blackmail from my mom. She decided of she going to be in pain she going make everyone around her suffer!
Mom tried to get me to spend the night with her on the couch my father died on. As soon as i can the couch will be destroyed and replaced. I am tired of laying there imagining his cold dead body lay there. I am tired my overactive imagination wondering where everything went wrong. Screw that couch! Mom needs a replacement.
Mom keeps trying to blackmail me to leave my husband and my house to live with her. My mental health cant handle her depression spiral. She often threatens suicide. I told her get the help she needs quit driving me insane with her. I hope the doctors find a way to stabilize her soon. She driving me crazy!
If i am lucky i might sleep before work. Maybe i will get a few minutes to nap before mom blows up my phone demanding me to come over or she will leave me homeless to teach me a lesson. I am getting tired of her shit.. If she doesnt quit soon i might need to move to another state i love her but she wont drive me to suicide with her bullshit. My mental health is more important. Talan and i already have a plan b.. Best advice to my mom. Straighten up or lose a daughter!