If only Jay were here to smile them away.
If only my beloved fox didnt have to go.
If only I’d finally find that perfect someone who would stay forever.
I hope I get to see you soon.
But the way things are going…
If you are out there reading this Jay,
I wish youd stop by and make it feel okay.
You always had that special way.
And the rest of the world just melted.
As I looked into your confident happy eyes.
I really need that right now.
Just sitting and talking to you.
Just you and me or maybe you, me, and a friend or two.
Maybe someday I’ll find a way to make dreams come true.
As for the rest of you…
I guess you should know.
I few nights ago,
I chose to live.
I was proud.
Seems like such a simple thing.
But sometimes it’s the hardest thing to do.
Here I still am,
What else is new?
Not many people know,
How many nights were almost my last,
How many times I struggle,
How hard it is not to live in the past.
I’m just exhausted of fighting so hard. I want a rest, one fun night with my old friend, maybe it’d help me mend. Miss you Jay. Keep being happy. Dont forget the good things old friend.