Blown tire, dads memorial garden,future plans in Misadventures of West Virginia Woman

My husband Talan blew his tire last night and his doughnut was flat. I had to bring my portable air compressor mom bought me for my birthday to inflate it. Talan is upset because we dont have the money to replace it. I suggested him going to dads garage and hope dad has a tire in his size. I have helped dad mount tires before so with help from youtube videos i should do it again. Talan grows irritated when i test my skills since dad died but i believe dad taught these skills to be self sufficient when he went away i wouldn’t be helpless. During my day off i plan to check dads storage buildings for tires that fit Talan’s car. I wish the fleamarket would open soon. We could buy tires there for cheap.

My mom is looking forward to growing a garden with me and my friends. We are growing it as a memorial to my father. I am still trying figure out what to plant. My husband doesnt want me to grow it. I value my husbands opinion but he is a videogaming type not the type that grows their own food. My friends have never grown a garden and i havent grown one since my 20s so i hope we dont kill the garden! Mom after we start getting lots of vegetables wants to teach us to can them. If we do well i might sale vegetables at the flea market. I have no idea the prices!

Yesterday was a bad depression day. I cried off and on through the day. I slept most of the day. I really miss my dad. I know mom misses him too! My husband Talan gets irritated how often i visit my mom but i know she needs someone there. My brother Tom is there but he only visits her to bum food or money he is using her for a place to live. He isnt there to listen to her and hold her when she cries. Since dad died mom been less than lovable slinging insults. I know she is only does it because she is in pain. She isnt always an asshole. I hope she gets better soon!

Due to limited funds on days off i find cheap staycations to do. So far Talan and i went fushing at Little Beaver State Park with his friends. I took Tella to the Womans Expo and did free yoga session at The Lost Paddle we plan to find more free exercise activities. Yesterday i bought 2 dresses thrift shopping and found a yoga video all for $11. Tella and i plan to start doing Zombie Runs together and going to free exercise events! Just because i am poor doesnt mean i cant have fun.

When it is warmer i plan to go camping. I hope to buy some squirt guns start squirt gun fights with friends. I plan to go fishing some.

My dad when he was alive he always planned trips but rarely went. He spent his last days dreaming of seeing ocean 1 more time. If i work hard to collect the money i hope to see it in his memory. I still feel dad with me. I plan to live his dreams for him.

Yesterday i went thrift shopping at Gabriel Brother i ran into Quanita from highschool. I told her about dad dying struggling to get by. I wish i could have lied to her said everything was amazing but i couldnt lie to myself. She made excuses to get away. I can understand why. I rather scare off the weak and keep true friends anyway.

With hard work things will get better. Just got to beat this depression and keep living!