Feeling alone in Chaos

I hate going to bed alone.

I thought this relationship would be different but it seems that it’s turning into the other.

I get up alone.

All day I feel like I’m competing for his attention wether it’s from the tv, his phone or the damn cat and now tonight his buddy. But before we used to go to bed together and atleast then I didn’t feel so isolated.

Now I lie here, like most nights, obsessing over what has changed. Maybe I’m expecting to much. Maybe I will always feel like this. Maybe no matter what I do or what I try I will always feel alone.