Losing my mind in Chaos

Gah.

I feel like I’m slowly losing my mind.

I’m slipping into a depression again. All I want to do is sleep. Sleep is my escape from reality. When I’m sleeping my mind is shut down and I stop obsessing over everything. My mind races constantly and I feel like I’m drowning.

I need my medications. I need to get stable again but I can’t afford them right now. It’s a vicious cycle. I need to be medicated in order to be stable enough to maintain work and I need to maintain work in order to afford my meds.

I’m ready to give up. I hate feeling like this and I just want it to end.