Single and alone in Myself and life as its been

I have been single my whole life, been to nervous especially in the sexual department, each day as time goes on my desire to be with someone grows even more and most nights or times im alone i masturbate to porn, sometimes passionate, sometimes hardcore and i hate that my desire sexually grows more and i wish i could turn it off.

i know they only use medical castration mainly on sex offenders but sometime i wish i could have those pills to turn off my sexual need. Since theres no herb or remedy to lower my emotional connection towards women.

i mean if theres a pill to help guys get an erection and anyone of legal age to take it then why cant anyone take something to lower their sexuality besides masturbating.

its like that film Equilibrium with Christian Bale and Sean bean in it but instead of shuttinng emotions off all together, just the sexual part.