Desperate in Myself and life as its been

You know I never thought id get desperate enough to pay for sex until I did and it wasnt about the sex anyway, I just wanted to be close to a woman physically, the sex was shit, never thought sex could be shit, atleast not from a guys point, you’d think the girls being escorts they’d know a thing or two but no, they pretty much think ride dick and done. Sex is more complicated especially for a guy with anxiety that cant keep it up.