OMG you guys. You have no idea what a sigh of relief I’m breathing!!
I found out about an hour ago that a presentation/review I’d been KILLING myself to complete before tomorrow has been postponed until next week! I can’t even tell you how this makes me feel. I also just met with my boss for an hour and a half on it as well and actually feel like I’m in a good spot for a change. How can this be? I know it’s temporary, but I’m gonna bask in this glow for a little while this afternoon.
I’m not gonna stay late. I’m gonna leave the office at a decent hour, pick up my love of a pup at her daycare and go for a nice, long walk with her. Then I’m gonna sit myself down at home and reeeellllaaaxxxx.
The situation with Super Geek has gotten…eh, I don’t know. Here’s a series of texts we’ve sent each other after I wrote about how I owed him some kind of response:
Monday 11:48 AM
Super Geek: I had an amazing run yesterday… Glorious out there on the trails. Wish it was going to be this nice during the weekend…
Super G: Speaking of the weekend (yes, lame segue), would u be interested in getting together?
Monday 8:11 PM (this is after I’d written my last entry and thought about it a lot)
Ginger Snap: I’d really like to, but I’m not sure I’m feeling a romantic chemistry? Do you? I’m not really feeling it from you.
Shortly thereafter…
Super G: First, thank you so much for being straight and honest. It’s a rarity and really appreciated. That said, I guess you’ve put to me a question that I wasn’t expecting and not sure I can sufficiently answer. So let me say this and see where it goes:
I know I’m attracted to you and I’m pretty sure I have made that clear. I admit that our last date was rockier than I’d hoped as early on I felt you were fulfilling and obligation…But to your absolute credit that passed and I thought things eventually went quite well…Heck, I kissed you twice (granted, just pecks, but I was feeling something.)
So back to your question, do I thing there is romantic chemistry? Maybe. I know I have felt it and I also know I felt it kinda slipped away and I wasn’t quite sure why.
So I decided to give you some space this week as I can be overwhelming at times. I didn’t want you to feel smothered. In the end, you too have to feel the attraction and the chemistry. I completely understand if you don’t. I am not putting this on you but this is a two way street and both side have to be working.
Lemme end on this: I was nervous last time I saw you as I finally met someone I felt worth my time. Dating is awful and to finally meet someone beautiful and smart and aligned in many ways with similar experiences hasn’t happened for me in a long time. Maybe I blew it or maybe we just aren’t’ meant for each other …but one thing I hope to dissuade you of is the notion that you weren’t feeling ti from me. I accept that you don’t feel it towards me, but that is different. Thanks for reading this far! -SG
Wow! Am I right? Wow. I mean, nice response, but daaaaammmn. All of that in a text.
So I followed up later the next day (I wanted to let it digest and let him hang for a bit - not in a mean way, but I wasn’t sure exactly how to answer), and I probably shouldn’t have, but I sent back a blurb about maybe I read things wrong but I was feeling a disconnect and ended the text with a suggestion of going on a dog walk together - he’s been talking of adopting a dog and I suggested he get with a foster and “test walk” a dog to see if they like each other.
He wrote back with a million texts in rapid fire! Ugh. Not what I was trying to accomplish! But he loved the idea of doing the foster dog walk and then he asked me if that was “a thing” and how would he go about doing that?
To which I haven’t answered because I’m exhausted just thinking about all of the things he wrote and then on top of that wanted me to make that shit happen. Overwhelming at times is right! I was trying to let the motherfucker down easy!
Eh.
And my poor Scotsman. He’s having a tough time at work. He says it’s because they’ve given him too many departments to manage, but I wonder if that’s really the case. I don’t understand all of that, but it seems to me that he could find a decent paying job elsewhere. He has such a way with words… I don’t know his management style, but maybe management is not for him. He’s told me that he’d love to be a teacher - and with his love of children and brilliant storytelling skills, I can imagine that as well. I’d love to see him happy and prosperous. Maybe once he figures things out we can actually talk about taking this relationship to the next level.
OK. I’m going to hit the road. It’s been a nice breather to write an entry, but now I need to go home and RELAX! Heh.
xox,
GS
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