Been avoiding writing because I just wasn’t sure how I was feeling about everything. So many things going on and I’m now getting a little bluesy since all of the excitement of the holidays has worn off and I’m crazed back at work!
Since I haven’t dissected my 4.5 day New Year’s Eve date properly to give you examples of the highs and the lows, I may end up giving you the Cliff’s Notes version.
The trip to New York to meet The Scot, was amazing. It truly was!
There were moments when I thought I was absolutely falling for him.
And there were moments when I thought he is SO not my boyfriend.
What I CAN say is that it was beyond amazing to have a man holding my hand continuously…an affectionate partner for a few days. A protective and loving and sexy as fuck dude. And a very handsome, sharply dressed man. I was VERY proud to be his girl for a while and to be standing next to him at all times. He felt like a boyfriend, for sure, and I’d missed that soooooo much.
But yeah, there were things that maybe weren’t the BEST. I may delve into those things later - I may not.
Right now I do want to bask in the fact that it truly was an unbelievably romantic several days. I loved it, but I also know that it wasn’t…real life, you know?
He tells me he’s coming to visit me. Here. In [my city]. He wants to see how I live. He says he’s coming at the end of February and he wants me to come to Scotland again this year to visit him.
How am I possibly going to do this? I mean, yeah - I know that a lot of people have long distance relationships like this…but I want someone I can BE with, you know? He has a lot of romantic notions. They’re impractical.
This is fun, for sure. I definitely adore the guy. But is it real? And is it keeping me from finding something…here? Now?
So much more to write…
xox,
GS
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