Depressed, skip Christmas,rebuild life after death in Misadventures of West Virginia Woman
- Dec. 27, 2018, 6:35 a.m.
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On Christmas eve i worked until 11 pm. My mom’s family wanted me to visit after. I was to tired and to depressed to care. All i wanted was dad to be there. I went home cried till i fell asleep.
On Christmas my friend Tella wanted me to visit i wasn’t in the mood. I slept most of the day. I went over to moms where i held her while she cried one of her idiot friends told her dad died and went to hell because he didnt go to church. I told her if i cant sit in dads garage and be called a mustang than just because a person goes to church doesnt guarantee them to instantly go to heaven. I told mom of course he went to heaven last 3 weeks of dads life he got religious make amends with people around him. I told her i am sure he asked God for forgiveness. I comforted her while she cried. She thanked me for being there.
I went to Tom and Lesa where i stayed up till early morning talking. I knew i had the 26 off. Talan and i went to Covington his mom bought him a 50 inch tv Talan was delighted. His mom bought he perfume and makeup bag. Talan’s brother Dalton bought me a bath set. I thanked them still not in Christmas spirit.
Talan came home set up his massive tv
I was given my 18 inch tv back he set me up with his old play station so i can watch netflix, hulu and youtube. I was delighted to be able to watch Fuller House. First time i have my own tv in my bedroom since college. Is it sad i felt excited?
In 2 weeks my mobile home should be scheduled to move. I was given a used mobile home with busted walls and floors. I need to learn to fix it. My sister in law and brother keeps trying steal my things from the apartment my things are in. You figure their sorry asses would give me time to grieve. Nope they want my stuff mom wont let them.. I remember why i avoid my sister law and brother. It scares me i will next door soon.
I been researching how to do repairs. Thanks to Pinterest i might fix a used mobile home into my forever home. With dads tools and supplies i might have a chance.
A Pedestrian Wandering ⋅ December 27, 2018
The pain of grief never goes away, but it becomes less and less over time. Using your dad's tools will be a good way to honor and remember him.
And what an awful thing for a "friend" to say about your dad! So thoughtless and cruel.