I really don't have a title in Socially Awkward

I didn't weigh myself this morning. I just couldn't. I woke up feeling bloated and after 3 days of trying really, really hard to eat less, I wouldn't have been able to mentally handle a gain very well if it turned out I gained even a pound. So I just avoided it and ate rather well today. Not that you care about ANY of that :D

I was thinking about hanging out with some people I know (friends?) tonight because we were supposed to hang out, but I wasn't in the hanging out kind of mood. Turns out it didn't matter because they were either all too busy or also not in the hanging out mood. It's incredibly awkward for me to hang out with them because I told one trusted person about my past eating issues and I'm 99.9% sure she told at least one other person (maybe more), so now it's just awkward.

I'm not sure if reading through my old OD entries was really the best idea. So far, I've made it to October 2008 (My first entry was in February 2006). Some of these entries are really ticking me off. It's not even myself I'm mad at...it's the people who went out of their way to say unnecessary, mean-spirited, hurtful comments to me when they could have just not said anything at all (Not OD people..in real life people). Words can leave invisible scars; choose them wisely.

I really should be working on some homework right now, but I'm feeling unmotivated. It's not even that hard...it's just tedious.

It has rained quite a bit today, so I'm hoping tomorrow we get a few hours without rain, so I can take my dog for a long walk. He's been giving me super sad looks the whole time I've been home tonight. I think he thinks I can turn the rain off. After all, I'm supermom ;) Just kidding.

This was kind of scattered...

What makes you happy? I'm talking simple joys, non-scale victories, anything. For me, it's when I can help someone and know I actually made a positive difference in their day.