Being Green and a Turn out of the Dark in Everyday Ramblings

  • Dec. 21, 2018, 8:43 a.m.
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We made it to the solstice! A bit of a bumpy ride for the world but we made it.

For those of you who have light and lots of it, may it not be too much of a sweaty burden and for those of us in the midst of those with so much darkness may we find warmth and comfort in each other.

I have this Tarot card in my deck, the Ten of Swords showing a dark image of a man on the earth bleeding from a sword plunged in his chest. Swords that are placed in various positions on a lonely windswept ground surround him.

To me this always means things are as bad as they could ever get and there will be a turn towards lightness, relief, a better place. This is suffering, this sucks, we all experience times like this and if I hang in there somehow things will change.

This is how I am feeling right now.

Due to an unexpected staffing change over the next three months they are going to transition Saint Joe out of his current job. We are supposed to put together a plan for me to do both of our jobs with occasional support for 90 minutes at a time from someone else on our team that already has a very full job and is stretched to the max. She is also a total grumpus and an ally of the Evil Empire.

There have hints of this sort of thing occurring for the last couple of years. All the capital I have built with my customers by providing excellent customer service and cheerful timely accommodating responses is going to be spent. Basically everything I have worked for over the last 12 years, poof! Gone.

I just wish I didn’t have to stay to see it go. It is a kind of torture. One I am sure thousands and thousands of government employees in our fair land are also experiencing now.

Thank goodness I have a vibrant life outside of work that I need to focus on to sustain me until I can get the heck out of there.

My students are worried but supportive about the space issue. I still don’t have a place to take us but I am working on it.

In the meantime I had a fun cheerful class on Wednesday that was good for my soul and I actually went to our annual holiday work party on that same day and lived to tell the tale.

It was a crazy day as people were jamming things through before vacations and I left the party early but before I did I made a quite visible appearance that management noticed. And I was gifted an 8 hour off chit that was probably the best possible gift they could give me.

Mrs. Sherlock was finally feeling well enough to come to class and basically commanded me to come to their place on Christmas afternoon. Of course I will go as Mr. Sherlock barely gets out now and his one good friend and family support will also be there. We will have festive lasagna and watch Pan’s Labyrinth in 3D.

Not exactly traditional but fun in it’s own quiet way.

Kes and Most Honorable are coming up to Portland for Christmas dinner with Kes’s best friend, who is feeling a bit fragile these days as so many of us do as we watch our friends age and deal with an abundance of challenges. We’ll Skype in the morning.

I am working Monday but I do get the weekend and I am looking forward to it! Oh yeah. But first I have to work on this seriously impossible request for statistics that came down from on high yesterday afternoon from top management of our huge organization.

We won’t talk about the fact that I have been agitating for the tools to get these statistics for the last five years and everyone ignored me. Not a peep out of me. No.

It ain’t easy being green. Kermit is a very wise frog.

Last updated December 21, 2018

Lyn December 21, 2018

Stay strong❗

I look forward to the days getting longer. Happy Holidays to you and the boys. 🐈🦌🎅🎄

Zipster December 22, 2018

How does Saint Joe feel about it? It seems like you are treated like pawns. I keep imagining you without the evil empire and how wonderful that will be. I like your plans for Christmas, Pan's Labyrinth sounds a better choice to me than most Christmas fare.

noko Zipster ⋅ December 23, 2018

Saint Joe is pretty happy about the change. He really wasn't crazy about continuing to do what he was doing or taking over my job. He's bought into the whole thing and is looking forward to the official promotion. I have been protecting him and focusing his energies on things he is good at for the last four years. He has no idea. I won't be doing that anymore. I realize the 18 months until I retire will fly by and I will adjust. It was just an abrupt shock.

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