Funk in Socially Awkward

I've been in a bit of a funk, and I'm not exactly sure how to get out of it.

I slept 11 hours last night/this morning. I did NOT mean to do that. I'm not expecting to go to bed at an early hour tonight because when I sleep that long the night before, it's really hard to sleep the next night because I'm just not tired.

I've recently rediscovered my love for candles. I briefly considered using one of them for self-harm a few minutes ago, but thought better of it (for now). Sigh. I'm at that point. Not looking for pity, just needing to get that out. I have so many feelings and emotions trapped inside, and this is the only place where I know I can let it out. Anyway, I have two candle lit beside me right now. They are from like two Christmases ago.

I got in a 2hr 45 min hike yesterday and it didn't budge the scale which is depressing. I have weighed myself 3 days in a row now which is a record itself. A long time ago (7-8 years ago) I used to weigh myself daily and it was very motivating even if it was a unhealthy motivation.

We're supposed to have like 5 straight days of rain. I'd rather have 5 straight days of rain. I know those in the midwest and northeast would slap me for saying that, but it's true. Snow is peaceful. Snow is calming. Snow makes me happy.