I suppose I might as well start practicing for NoJoMo. I do this every year and I really love doing it. It makes me want to write and write and write what’s on my mind. In fact, I don’t know why I just don’t do it every day - besides the fact that my best writing time is around 9:30am when I should be deep in work mode.
But yeah. I just adore NoJoMo for some reason. I’m not even in a “group” or anything. I’m just dedicating myself to write an entry a day.
So today my boss sent me an email before I even got to work asking me if I’d do a HUGE favor for him…which was, write my own self-appraisal so that he could review it and add some comments and turn in my annual review. He said to base it on everything I’d done last year and not based on what my PIP says for the new job going forward (because the new stuff is what I struggle with).
No problem, I said! And away I went, going on and on about LTIC and all of the other stuff I did over the past year. In fact, I impressed myself! I ended up giving myself an ‘Excellent’ rating and you know what I did next? I turned that motherfucker in….EXCELLENT AND ALL!
Now. I know he’s not going to give me an excellent rating, but goddammit…I also know that he doesn’t even know half the shit that I did last year. In fact, he sent out some urgent emails today to some of the other teams talking about how I’d spearheaded an initiative (he’d forgotten) that he’d like continued this year and asked if I would share my presentation with the team next week.
Of course!
It’s funny how I’m now a very important part of the process, isn’t it?
I don’t know. Just annoyed today.
My Scot is an absolute dream. Last night we were on FaceTime for well over an hour after my work - in fact I was still at the office and took the call outside while I walked the dog around and around the building. He made me laugh until I cried. I am feeling a bit like I’m falling for him…which is INSANE, right???
But I’m going to share an excerpt of his most recent text (his texts are looonnnnggg) Read this in your head with a Scottish accent - it sounds even THAT much more romantic:
“…You know what? I want to travel the world with you; I want to get drunk and dance in Havana, kayak in Scottish highlands, walk all the [local] trails with you…but more than anything,…
It’s the time spent having done all this that I want more than most; the pair of us at a fireside, warm, cosy, satisfied, fed and glowing from our adventures, both absorbed in books, occasionally looking at each other, smiling to see the other so content; or cuddling up listening to a radio or tv documentary, both learning…you asking, “what did they say?”…me telling you…me saying, “what did they say?”…you shouting “shut the fuck up, I’m trying to listen” [smiley faces with tears coming out of their eyes]…Martini giving me the middle paw [shoulder shrug emoji]
I guess what I’m saying is this
We could have sunset on Santorini
We could have NYE in NYC
And all I look forward to is the small things; I want to look at my girl at night, just a glance, knowing she is absolutely content but full of adventure
I want us to be fireside; I want you to be organising an adventure for yourself, or with your girls; I want Martini to be on my lap as we both cosy in and watch our girl get excited and look and feel alive…with her knowing her whole world, safety and love are right there, loving her
Then you come over, snuggle in, tell us about your adventure and we cosy in…
Sound ok? [red heart emoji]”
I mean…
RIGHT???!!!
Like, isn’t that all a girl ever wants to read in a text? And he says this stuff over FT as well. He’s not always this squishy…most of the time he’s hilariously funny, but a lot of the time it seems like he is planning this amazing life for us .
But is it REAL?? Like, does he really MEAN it?
So yes, he’s a dream. So much so that I am starting to feel kind of pushy. I’ve decided to go ahead and book my flight to NYC for New Year’s Eve and tell him that he can join me or not, but I will be there with bells on.
I’m asking him to put his money where his mouth (or in his case, his texting fingers) is/are.
If he shows, then we may have the best thing that ever happened to the both of us.
If he doesn’t show....then I’ll still have a great time - how can I not? I ADORE traveling solo. And yes, the stroke of midnight might be a bit melancholy…but then again, it might NOT! I could be kissing a complete stranger!!!
So yeah, I’m going to take the risk either way. I just clicked the confirmation button on the airline website. It’s done. I’m NYC bound for NYE!!
OK.
Gotta go take care of some business (aka Walk the Dog) and then head to bed.
Loved getting this out. And guess what? I’ll see you tomorrow for the first installment of 2018’s NoJoMo!!
See you later, mofos!
xox,
GS
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