Over-thinker.. in A Day in the Life of Me

It’s probably one of my worst things… it can be any little thing, brought on by any stupid trigger, from something as old as way back to jr.high, or as recent as an interaction with a customer at work today.
It makes me paranoid, lose sleep, dredge up old hurts I’ve tried to let go/bury/forget

Tonight’s episode, as I lay here in bed TRYING to go to sleep… the cat incident… I’m still trying to get over the fact that they think we did something and that now I’m paranoid of what they could be saying to othe mutual friends/acquaintances.
They have either blocked us or gone of social media altogether, so I know there’s no chance at reconciliation, that way. Not that we did anything but try to help, it still guts me that afrer knowing me as long as she has, she would think I would even THINK of hurting an animal, and then lie about it. Especially to someone I considered a friend.

I was toying with the idea of writing her a letter, to let her know… it’s been almost 3 months. But she did lose her dad that same week.
And did I even mention the fact that her vet was part if the reason for the cat getting so sick afterwards, but we were made to feel to blame, even after we offered to help with costs knowing what she was going through..

Maybe i’ll just wait.. and drop a xmas card in the box. Maybe I should just let it go. I dunno.. :(
I really don’t know what to do about either situation… them, OR shutting off my brain..

I do this all the damn time… it’s so frustrating. Things I should’ve/could’ve/would’ve said to “friends”/family/coworkers/(ex)bosses/customers /people in general…
WHY does my brain have to do this… especially when I am trying to get to sleep?! Ugh..
Seriously need to get some help with this
:(