Better in Drink Drunk Distraction

Things are sort of better today. I had a good sit and a think about what’s been bothering me - it’s basically about going to mediation with my ex this Wednesday. Our daughter, G, my eldest and her only has really been acting up. When my ex took her to a child psych, my daughter said she wants to spend more time with me.

This is sort of a problem for my ex. She’s fought tooth and nail to keep us apart - I had to go to court to see her at all, and now we’ve got her Tuesdays and every second weekend… My ex thinks that’s too much… but now she’s got a child psych saying G wants more.

My relationship ended with my Ex 8 years ago. Since then I’ve gotten remarried, had two more kids, and she kind of can’t seem to let things go. Some of the fun includes:

-Refusing to let G come and meet her new baby brother about a month ago, because soccer practice was more important
-Telling all the parents and teachers at G’s school I cheated on her with my current wife (there were 2 YEARS between relationships)
-Telling my mother to ‘go fuck herself’

The last 3 times we’ve been to mediation before court, my ex just sat there and screamed at me. More recently - given she now knows my daughter wants to spend more time, she’s kind of been better, but it still involves being yelled at a lot.

I don’t know. I don’t want to make my ex angry, but I feel like I need to stand up for my daughter and the rest of the family to make sure G spends more time with us.

I think I’ve just got to let go of the fear of what might happen, and focus on some positives.