War On All Fronts in The Stuff That's Not Interesting But Is The Most Interesting Stuff I'll Write

  • May 16, 2018, 9:56 a.m.
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I hate that everything is so difficult right now. I have to fight for every damn thing. I have to struggle to feel fine, feel normal, feel even just a minute amount of self-love and each step of the way battling the voices of everyone around me.

Seriously. I’m not even over-exaggerating this a little bit.

I agreed to do the Sierra College Charity Drag Show and I regret it. First off, I don’t really get drag. I have never been a fan of it. I don’t completely despise it as much as I used to, I just don’t really think it’s impressive. Yes, I’ve done drag before, but the truth is, it reminded me of another experience I had: it reminded me of when I would dress up as a clown. And the truth is, I think that we as gay men deserve better than being thought of as sexless entertainment. My mother is coming to the drag show with a bunch of people apparently, and I’m not looking forward to it. At all.

I got into a huge fight with my little brothers and realized the gap that exists between us. My little brother was wearing a t-shirt that said “There are 2 genders: change my mind” and I just lost it. I was trying to reason with him or understand where he was coming from, but it was just frustrating because he’s one of those people who thinks that his opinion is a fact. I just pointed out that his shirt was wrong because science has proven that there are, in fact, more than 2 genders, and he just replied, “Well, that’s your opinion.” Ummm, what?

Then my other little brother agreed with him and then when they started to explain what their source of their beliefs were, they began a line of argument that meant that they believe both gays and trans folk are mentally ill. And I just lost it. I went to the laundry room and just sat and cried for like two hours.

Then I went to see my general practitioner for a general physical and I asked him about PrEP. Boy, was that a mistake. He told me that there was no such thing as PrEP, and when I insisted that I had heard of it, he then launched into a speech that left me stunned. He told me there was no logical point to even making such a product because that would mean there is patient demand to go out and fuck AIDS-riddled prostitutes.

Why the fuck am I surrounded by careless bigots at every turn?

When I get back to work tomorrow, I’m putting in a hardship transfer and getting the fuck back to Los Angeles.


nothinglikeyou May 17, 2018

Man, I am sorry. Get out, if you can! There is no need in living miserably around bigots. Blah, I thought Cali was more open, but I guess they're everywhere. Take care boy.

Anthjo June 30, 2018

Whoa. I know I'm a little late on this thread, but I'm so sorry you had to deal with this.

"Everyone gets to have an opinion" is something I hear often. No, you're not entitled to an opinion if it's wrong...Correction- You ARE entitled to speak ill advised, nonsensical bullshit....but it simply makes that person look like a fool....anyone who defends the indefensible is a fucking idiot....and no, their opinion doesn't matter because it's factually incorrect.

Your doctor deserves to get throat punched and should seriously consider another field. Seriously

....and drag? Ugh. It is everywhere in Richmond. It is the focal point of our LGBTQ community in this city and I hate it. I don't dislike drag as a form of mindless entertainment....I think it has it's place....I just think that it does nothing to further ourselves as a marginalized group of people. It makes us look like court jesters and a minstrel act....nothing worse than a bunch of conservative women coming to a drag brunch and having fun at our expense then going home to their Trump voting household....

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