31st birthday, cant afford bills, need to be thin in Misadventures of West Virginia Woman
- Feb. 25, 2018, 4:23 a.m.
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Tomorrow is my birthday i dont want to celebrate. I just want sleep till the day is over. I never thought i would live to see 31. I thought either my father or ex fiance Alan would have killed me by now. I didn’t have babies or bought property because i thought i wouldnt have never lived long enough to need it. I am at a lost. I dont know how my life is supposed to go. I never planned this far. I am at a lost. I thought i would have died because of domestic violence. What do i do now?
I am not as attractive as i used to be. I am heavier. I been on a diet but my fine wrinkles are starting to pop up i am often mistaken for 40-60 year old. I look at people who are teenagers i want to tell them sorry but this probably best you are going to look like.
I bought a small birthday cake, ice cream and pizza. I hate myself. I am ruining my low carb diet for my birthday. My mom yesterday took me out for my birthday we had pizza. demanded to know how much l have lost on my low carb diet. Her comments almost drove me to an eating disorder. I am never going to be her ideal image.she tried to force me on the scales. I manage to change topic and get away.
I am worried about money i am not sure if we are going to afford power bill and rent this teacher strike has took 3 days of pay away from me. I hope they resolve soon. Can i get unemployment if i cant work as a guard in the school for pay due to strike? I hate being home unpaid like this. Damn work stoppage. How can i pay my bills?
I got a free ticket to womans expo first day i took my mom. Today i went by myself while Talan slept. I met Cody Wickline, Landau Murphy Junior and Jeremy Ambler from Walking Dead. I got pictures with them but wasnt star strucked. Talan got jealous of Cody Wickline. He didn’t realize the guy is musician. Talan thought Cody was a good looking guy who was going to snatch me away. Cody isnt my type he is to much like perfection. I preferred flawed men because i relate better.
I watched Zoo of Trees performed at Womans Expo i recorded one song before my phone went dead. I left to charge my phone took my bags of freebies like ink pens, hand sanitizer, chap stick and went home. I lost interest.
I took a bouncy bag out of my bag. Watch cats chase it while i played with tablet mom got for my birthday.
How do people on social media lie how great their lives are? I cant keep up with the Kardashian or afford plastic surgery. I cant afford my basic bills. How do they fake fabulous vacations? I am to tired to lie or deal with vanity. I am to real and unhappy to fake life.
Beret ⋅ February 25, 2018
Happy Birthday! It's OK to splurge on your birthday with cake and ice cream.
You are right; so much of what you see on the internet is fake. Who are the Kardashians and what have they ever done to make life better? I'll tell you. They are no one and have done nothing.
So today you are 31 and say you are lost. I say today is the day you should get a plan. Get on track. Find a path so that you are not lost. Sit down and take stock. Write down goals. Make a road map. You won't get "unlost" in a day but having a plan can help. One day at a time. You can do it.