Cursed in Brief Thoughts

I swear I feel like a curse on everyone and everything around me. Every time things start to go a little right, they go a lot wrong. Been at my ex’s house for the last month and a half taking care of her and the pets. Finally getting ready to go home this week. Monday goes great and we have a nice time yesterday until we get back to the house. Go up to feed her goats before bed and find the newest baby, who we think was born premature but was fine earlier in the day, completely sluggish and not moving. Get the baby up and try to feed her, but it was no use. She passed away in our arms. Feel like I should have seen something wrong with her early in the day, but missed it. So yeah, I feel like a damn curse because this isn’t the first time stuff like this has happened. A catnof hers had multiple strokes and I found him both times. Somehow, he is still going and actually seems to be getting better, but it is hard to trust it ever. I just want to have a good day, a good week, a good month where something doesn’t go drastically wrong. It is really wearing me down emotionally.