Confusion and Ignorance Cont'd 11/3/2003
I left Big, annoyed, and headed over to The Rat, since I figured I'd run into a few of my friends there. I ran into not only Christine, Nicole, and Erin, but also Staci, my friend who graduated the year before and who came back for a surprise visit. Staci and I somehow ended up losing the others. As I was walking out of the bar with her, Chris grabs my shoulder. I let Staci go because she was going home anyway and I had only planned on walking her out. He said hi to me and told me he was just going to the bathroom and that he'd be back in a bit. I didn't feel like standing around waiting for him like a puppy so I found my friends again. Nicole wanted to meet Chris so I brought her back over to where I was supposed to be waiting for him. He came back over to me saying that he had been looking for me. He asked me if I had been standing there the whole time and I lied that I had been. He gave me a look and I blushed and told him I had stepped away for a little while.
Nicole left and Chris and I went to hang out by the pool tables. We talked about random stuff like how our night went and stuff. he made some really ignorant comment about Jews that still rubs me the wrong way. He was like, "Don't you guys (I'm assuming the 'you guys' was referring to Jewish people) call non Jewish people Gentiles and Goyim?" Well, out of the few million Jews in the world, I'm sure some do, but then again, out of the billions of Christians in the world, I'm sure a few refer to 'us guys' as 'kikes 'and 'heebs.' He asked again about my parents and how religious they were. He told me he and his family weren't religious at all...It was just a weird conversation. I felt like he was putting me on the defensive because he was saying some really ignorant shit. Like, "I feel bad for you guys because you miss Christmas and Christmas is an awesome holiday." You're right Chris....It's not like Judaism has any good holidays or anything. It was the first time I had felt dislike towards Christopher. He just made me feel really uncomfortable with his comments and I resented it.
We danced for awhile, kissed (ignorant or not, he's a good kisser), we made a trip to the bar and then back to the pool table to chat about random shit some more. Another point during the night I had mentioned that I was leaving soon because I was tired. He says, "Well I'm not going home with you, I'm going back the the dorms with my friends if that's OK with you." Funny, I thought the standard procedure was to wait til someone asks you to come home with them until you say no...Rather arrogant for him to expect that I was going to ask him to come back with me, which I had no intention of doing....
He grabbed my hand telling me to wait for him this time while he went into the bathroom again. I waited, but I seriously considered walking away again. He came back and we left the bar. He told me he was going to go and find his friends, and grabbed my hand again and asked if I'd be on-line later. I gave hin a quick kiss good-bye and left. I was pissed off that I was walking home alone (not necessarily without Chris, but without my friends) and that Chris had been making shady comments all night. I wen home and fixed myself this humungous meal to ward off the hangover I knew I'd have the next day. Chris IMed me but I fell asleep and I never answered. The next day I dropped him an IM that I fell asleep at the computer and that I was sorry I never got back to him. I felt like it was the right thing to do...I would've felt like a bitch if I had just left him hanging.
He IMed me last on Saturday night, but once again I was asleep. I went to sleep early that night so I woke up randomly at 4 am, almost 5 am. Chris had left me an IM to IM him back...His away message said 'sleeping' but I figured I'd tell him that I was sorry I didn't get back to him and I had been sleeping. He actually IMed me back...he had been up watching tv for some reason...we ended up having one of our normal conversations again. He told me my glasses gave me character, that he loved me glasses, they complemented me, and gave me character. He also mentioned that he loves girls with glasses, which definitely earned him some brownie points. I asked him to go to this bagel place with me the next morning (I figured we could have our 'talk' about what the hell we are there) but he said no, he usually sleep really late. I said alright, another time, and we haven't spoken since. I've decided that I'm not asking him to date party. I thought I liked him a lot, but now I'm not so sure. He was really shady on Halloween, and since I only see him like once or twice a week, that's the impression I have left in my head of him. So now I don't know what's going on.
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