Just Chillin 10/23/2003
Last night was amazing. Chris was over, but we didn't do anything....that's what made it so great. I can hang out with him, and watch a movie with him, and basically just chill out without feeling the need to hook up. It totally alleviated any worries I had that we were just "hook-up buddies" or something. I was running around all day doing errands and going to class. When I got back to my apartment I saw that Chris had IMed me, asking me if I had any plans tonight. He told me he was going out and that I should expect a drunken phone call later. So I'm making my littling gifts in my living room, watching "While You Were Sleeping" when my phone rang. Chris wasn't drunk at all, but he did ask to come over. I would've felt like an ass had I said no, since he asked so sweetly so I said OK. I made sure to emphasize that I had to get up early tomorrow (which I did) so he knew what the deal was.
I have so much work to do between my internship, classes, and getting a little sister this semester...I did nothing over the weekend since Becca was here on Friday, Saturday I was running errands, and on Sunday I was massively hung over. I'm glad I met Chris but I wish it could've been during a different semester. Everything I've ever wanted like close friends, being active in a sorority, getting a little, being close with the people I live with has finally came true but it came true all at once and now everyone's making demands on my time. I don't take my good fortune for granted, mind you, since I waited so damn long for it, but it does make my life a hell of a lot more hectic.
Anyway, I ended up losing my parking spot when I took my car to go and get Chris from downtown. I felt bad because by the time I got to the club, everyone had already left. Chris wasn't there so I ended up calling him. He literally had to run down the street while I was sitting at a red light...Kinda funny actually...Anyway, he actually brought pizza with him because he "thought I might be hungry." HE'S SO DAMN SWEET!!!! So we went back to my apartment and watched movies until three am. We watched this movie, Sour Grapes, which was a step above 'Kill Bill' but whatever...I was with him...
I feel so awkward around him though...I never know what I should do...He was trying to snuggle with me on the couch and I was definitely resisting because I honestly didn't want to be hooking up with him that night. I don't want to be thought of as a cocktease, and I was simply too tired to start anything with him. After awhile I felt bad, so I reaaranged myself so my head was pillowed in his lap and my feet were hanging over the couch...very comfortable, let me tell you...and I was in a position where it was next to impossible to kiss me, which was good...I love kissing him, but it's never just kissing...it always leads to something else and I simply wasn't in the mood. We did kiss while on the couch but it was only for a few minutes and then we simply went back to watching the movie. It was the most laid-back and relaxed night I ever spent with him.
I have an experiment to do, but I'll write more later....
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