cont'd again (long f'cking entry huh?) 12/22/2002
Andrea B., a Theta who I'm deciding if I like or not, comes up to me and starts telling me how much Jay said he wanted to talk to me. She kept telling that I I was beautiful, and that Jay and I are such nice people and that we should hook up, etc. She says, "He came to to me asking me what was going on with you...go over and talk to him." See, last night I had fun because you either have to be sober, an hanging out with other sober people, or drunk, and hang out with other drunk people. That night Jay was sober and I was drunk, which was a bad idea from the start. Jay was just being such a prick that night. I honestly would've had a good time just dancing and hanging out with my friends, but when Andrea told me that Jay wanted to talk to me, I was like "OK, I'll go chill with Jay." Yeah...Jay only liked me because I was wearing a low-cut shirt and we were both drunk. I was just a piece of ass to grab and some chick to kiss. He made it abundantly clear that night that he didn't like me. I made a simple comment like "I want to go and get a drink," so he says, "Well I'm not getting it for you because I don't have the money." I wasn't asking you to buy me a drink, I was asking you to come with me. And last night, I didn't ask you to buy me a drink you came up from behind me, asked what I wanted, and then told me you were paying for it. But anyway...not that I'm bitter. We were talking and whatnot and every time Andrea passed by us she would whisper "Just stay with him and keep talking." So I actually listened to her because I was drunk and I really wanted to believe that Jay liked me.
He kept telling me how hot he was and that he was going to pass out so I offered to go outside with him. I wasn't planning on raping him or anything...I'm a foot shorter than him, it just wouldn't work. I just felt bad for him and wanted to make sure he was OK. He wouldn't dance with me, wouldn't tough me...so why the fuck did you say anything about me to begin with Jay? I would've left you alone had I thought you didn't like me.
SO then I started thinking that maybe Jay didn't say anything about me...maybe Andrea was just meddling and made shit up...I dunno. I left Jay for five minutes to use the bathroom. When I had come back he was gone. Tanya came over to me and told me that Jay told her "I'm sorry if Elissa's confused, but I don't like her." That's nice. I felt so terribke when I left the club that night. Boys don't like me unless they're drunk and horny. Everyone kept telling me how nice Jay was...he wasn't so nice that night, that's for sure. So screw boys, next semester is all about hanging out with my friends. For the first time in my life I have awesome friends, and I have a group of them to hang out with...I won't waste my time worrying about stupid boys. Fuck the boys, I've got my girls, and that's all I need :o)
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