We buried my friend Iva Fortner today. She was 98 years old and died of cancer. The funeral wasnt until 12 mom got there at 10:45 demanding why i wasnt there. Talan decided come along for emotional support before we got there mouthy this morning complaining he rather sleep. He wanted to bring his gun. He tried to argue with me. I told him no one wants him dead keep the gun at home. I told him quit being a bitch and man up. Today isnt about his petty complaining. I threatened to leave him at home if he wasnt on his best behavior.
My mom demanded me to leave him at home. Told me to dump him keep him out the house. She demanded me be there right now! I didnt shower or dressed. I told mom i was getting ready she kept complaining about Talan. I told her today is a day for grieving leave her petty bitchiness at the door. Mom and Talan realized i am not tolerating their shit today. They were thank God on their best behavior. It was a miracle.
I was crying at the funeral. I was embarassed i was crying. Mom was crying. Talan never met Iva always heard me talk about her. The minister started telling story about Iva doing church services at her home when my brother and i were kids. I looked over Talan was crying holding me. I asked him why he was crying he said he hates seeing me in pain.
My mom at the grave sight lost her keys. I was walking around Iva casket looking for moms keys. Several other people were looking too. Mom had the keys were clipped on her bra strap. I appologized to the people.
On the way back to the church to have dinner Talan was talking about us going to the court house and getting married today.He was talking about us having kids. I told him this is a bad day for this conversation lets save it for later.
Talan, mom and i ate a really nice dinner with Iva daughter Jessica gave me a hug said she loved me. I hugged her told her i loved her too. I knew with Iva passing away she needed all kindness she could get.
Talan, mom and i ate a nice dinner. She said my engagement ring was to basic offered me one of her rings. Talan turned red from anger. He wanted to buy me a big impressive ring. I told him i rather have a basic cheap ring so we could afford our bills. I chose my engagement ring when he bought it. He paid $30 for it. I didnt want a debt for a piece of silver with diamonds.Mom wasnt impressed. Talan was suprised when i told mom i am not wearing this ring for the show. I like basic thanks.
She told me buy the new wedding set off of her so when we decide to get married. It is blingy and flashy. I like basic mom and i have different taste in jewerly. I told her i think we will find my wedding set thanks. She wasnt happy.
Talan mentioned wanting to have kids. Mom argued i shouldnt have kids till i own a house with property paid off. She reminded me that i owe her money cause she bought my trailer. I reminded her i have $100 in my bank account till payday. She began to lecture me i need a better job. I work 30-40 hours a week at $9.50 an hour. Most money goes to paying for gas for my car with mechanical issues.
I dove into my cake thinking i could enjoy it for her to remind me i am fat..gee mom thanks. I told her if Iva was alive right now she would eat this cake! I started eating the cake she took her fork grabbed a piece. Talan stole a piece and stole my cake. I grabbed another cake mom took a bite stole my cake. I grabbed another piece both of them reached out i threatened to stab them with my fork for taking my cake. They decided eat their stolen pieces leave mine alone.
Mom left to look at exercise equipment told me i need to get some cause i am fat. I gave her a hug drove Talan home he went to work after he got ready.
I cleaned out my car in my nightgown the neighbors stared because it was 4 in the afternoon i didnt even care if old ladies can do it a 30 year old woman who doesnt care should do it too! I took a nap till Ziggy my cat headbutt wanting attention.
I bought groceries after i found more suitable clothes. Now i am going to bed i got a 45 minute drive in the morning for bus duty and to guard a school.
I hope Talan goes to bed and quits playing videogames so i can sleep. He is working at the gas station at 9 am. I hope he goes to bed soon so i can sleep..night